Well, I'm back again... in the midnight hours when the rest of you are asleep. I'm really mounting up those hours of insomnia and fasting. Thought an immense amount of physical exertion today may have helped, but as you can all guess it didn't... I should have taken a trip down to the manor at Syde and helped out, I think that would have just distracted me though!!!! Or should I say someone!!! even the classical music I'm listening to isn't helping, just invoking strong feelings of sorrow and passion. I hear you shouting at me, I know "take sleeping tablets" - they don't work. I'd need the amount to knock out a cow...

Have you ever wondered how so many people that you have known in the past from different places end up knowing each other now, and find yourself wondering how they could possibly have met when they seem to have all been placed in different scenarios. Have you ever wanted to contact them, out of the blue after years and ask them quite nosily "how do you know so and so?". How about those that you have either been or want to be close to and are now friends. Have you ever wanted to take them in your arms and comfort them when they are stressed and seemingly not coping with certain areas of their life. Even though you know that there network of friends is vast, you have that notion that only you can help or understand. What do you do about it? I often wonder, when the scenario you find yourself in is lacking in clarity for either one or both of you what it is that goes through your mind! Are you on the same page... or the differences in how you are feeling create that ubiquitous elephant in the room... can you ever get past that? Or do you inevitable end up getting to/back together or going your separate ways. It all seems such a waste and shows that life would be so much more enjoyable and less stressful if we could all read each others minds!

Are there anyone out there that knows what I mean when I say that sometimes you worry about someone more then you need... Anything to forget about the worry that people might have for you. Am I alone to say that sometimes a situation gets so bad that in the end you end up not caring as a matter of course! Consequently you end up not caring either for the other person affected by the situation. God that sounds awful! Hit the self destruct button and take on the consequences and ramifications as they arrive. Do we often know what we are doing when actions are taken by us? Do we see the whole situation as we begin to play the scene? When others point out things, is it a case that we did not procure to these points, or that we refuse to acknowledge that we did in fact knowingly ignore what our actions might affect the others surrounding us. I'm in that position, but unusually, I'm the one that will be affected by the others actions as they refuse to undo the damage that they have done so far. Instead they continue on the course that they have laid out and continue as if they were Casey Junior. Yes! Yes! I hear some of you cry, "who is Casey Junior?"well you'll have to find out yourself if your that interested. I might sound like a boring sage but I'm here to vent, moan and procrastinate. Not lecture.

Some years ago I was introduced to Astrology, can't say that I go in very much to believing in it. But, it must hold some fascination to me, as I often look at what the daily forecast is... I can only think, as I never take any notice of it, is that its the fascination that one has in something that they think allot of bullshit... All right! I know that there are those out there who believe in it, and live their lives by it. Bit like those who think that yoga is crap. I have to say that I do not on that score, I found myself in a situation recently that would have led directly to yoga being very useful. Needless to say, there was no such procurement, and that is enough said. I am sure many of you understand the need for some privacy and the rest of you have imaginations that I'm sure you'll use to great effect. I digress.

Astrology! lets see how accurate it is? I am a Sagittarius! I am supposed to be optimistic, well that's not true, ask anyone who knows me. I think I must be one of the most pessimistic people on the planet. As for travel and ambition well yes, that's true! But to say that idealism is not affected by disappointment I don't agree with, not in my case anyway, and I've had lots of disappointments....Sincerely generous with a passion, trustworthy and loyal is very true, but who sees that as being a quality, that would mean staying around for any length of time and nobody has done that so far in my case. Whoever they are they all get fed up and leave and fairly quickly as well. Sagittarius's are you thinking that any of this sounds familiar? let me know? REBELLIOUS... oh Yes!!! I have recently discovered how tantalizing and fun being rebelliously naughty can be, especially when you are with another. I wonder, though is that leading someone astray? Can you lead someone astray, or do they have to want to be led astray? All astrology fans you can jump up and down screaming YEP!! at this point as I am beginning to get very scared at how this information given to me is like me... I don't believe in God, no but have a sense of something I must believe in and everyone says I overdo my ethics.Can't say I'm a conversationalist but as I'm training to take on a post as a historical researcher, I'm still listening. Sexually, conventional, well maybe! In control, depends! faithful oh definitely!thought to be frigid by many oh yes that definitely is a definite. Possibly even so right you could say that I have had the ability to shock in how non frigid I am. Still listening, come on now I'm scaring and have to say it, shocking myself here. A fiery temper, demanding and great with horses. Who wrote this? you know who you are! Are you sure you just didn't write about me?As for having a good sense of humour, always thought people were laughing at me, until recently someone said that they were laughing with me and I made them laugh. For relationships that are sexually passionate, intellectual as well as full of a sense of ease go for those that are Piceans. Alright, you sold me on the ideas! But theses daily star sign horoscopes, nar!